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Sunday, January 01, 2006

The Wonder Years - There where moments that made us cry with laughter, and there were moments, like that one, of sorrow and wonder

Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers, the next you're gone, but the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a house like a lot of houses, a yard like a lot of yards, on a street like a lot of other streets. I remember how hard it was growing up among people and places I loved. Most of all, I remember how hard it was to leave. And the thing is, after all these years I still look back in wonder. - quote from The Wonder Years

Nung fourth year high school ako sa province namin sa Pampanga may kababata ako na nagka-crush sa akin. Tawagin na lang natin siya sa bansag na BB (as in Beauty and Brains). Two years junior si BB sa akin. Fourth year ako, second year siya. Although napag-alaman kong crush niya ako, hindi ako nag take advantage. Bagamat maganda siya, matangkad, matalino, at malambing, she wasn’t really my crush at that time. Wala akong naramdaman na "puppy love" towards her. Isa pa di ako marunong manligaw noon. Tyope ako, natatameme kapag kaharap ay chicks. Kulang kasi sa exposure sa mga Eva. Exclusive boys kasi ang high school na pinapasukan ko noon.

Subalit dahil sa pagsusulsol ng mga kabarkada nakuha kong makipagkaibigan kay BB. Summer vacation noon. Araw-araw kada hapon magba-bike ako para pasyalan sa bahay niya si BB at makipag-kwentuhan. No topic in particular. But no sweet nothings either. Hindi nga ako marunong manligaw eh. Come to think of it now, siguro I bored her all those times. Siguro hinintay niya akong gumawa ng move na manligaw, but that never happened. Yet somehow, I felt that there was something between us. Something slightly more than just being barkada. Hindi nga lang malinaw. I enjoyed her company and always looked forward to seeing her every afternoon.To this day I still look back to that summer as one of my most memorable childhood days.

Natapos ang summer and I had to go to Manila to attend college. Naiwanan si BB sa Pampanga. Paminsan-minsan uuwi ako at bibisitahin pa rin si BB. Hanggang dumalang nang dumalang ang pag-uwi ko. Until one day, nalaman ko na lang na may boyfriend na pala si BB. Still, whenever I went back home, I tried to see her. Kaibigan naman kasi ang turing ko sa kanya. Kaibigan na parang barkada. Nothing really romantic.

But long distance friendships don’t prosper. Unti-unting nawalan kami ng contact sa isa’t isa. Una months lang. Tapos naging years na hindi na kami nagkita. I graduated college and she did too. It was a few years after college and I was already working in Manila when a common friend gave me BB’s phone number. I found out that she was working in one of the companies in Ortigas. I can’t remember the circumstances of our meeting. I think I called her and asked if I can meet her at her workplace. Pinuntahan ko siya sa Ortigas. Expect ko maging masaya ang kwentuhan namin at ang pagbalik-tanaw sa nakaraan. Kaya lang pagkita ko sa kanya may kasama siyang lalaki. Pinakilala niya ako sa kasama niya. Boyfriend niya at engaged na raw silang ikasal in a few months. Yun ang huling kita ko sa kanya. It lasted 5 minutes. Maybe 10 at the most. From then on, wala na akong naging balita tungkol kay BB.

All of our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone that makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope. All the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect who might be searching for us. - quote from The Wonder Years

Siguro kaya tawag nila “wonder years” because you wonder what might have been had you done something differently during those years. Hanggang ngayon iniisip ko, ano kaya kung niligawan ko siya noon at kami ang nagkatuluyan? Not that I want to change the past or the present. Only, sometimes I can’t help but wonder. Has anyone felt the same way? Ever wondered what if she/he was the one instead?

Dedicated to my childhood friend from St. Scholastica's Academy, Pampanga Batch '79

30 Comments:

  • Ka Uro,

    First and foremost Happy New Year! what a story is this a way to start your new year? I guess habang pinapanood mo ang mga fireworks ay iniisip mo siya...muntik na akong nanghinayang sa inyong dalawa pero hindi siguro dapat kasi alam ko God had design that for a reason. And most of those reasons is something that will be best for both of you.

    Somehow I could relate to your story I have something that is similar to your story on my case nga lang type niya rin ako (sabi nila, ang kapal no) kaya lang kasasagot lang sa akin ni Jean that happens to be my wife. Nag abot kasi ang panliligaw ko sa kanila (ang tagal kasi akong hindi sinagot nitong si Jean 1.5 years ba naman kaya naman naghanap tuloy ako ng back-up). Siguro kong nagkatuluyan kami nasa America narin ako ....nasa IT din kasi siya no regret kasi hapy naman ako with my lovely wife jean and two beatiful kids (EJ & JV).

    By Anonymous noel, at 1:54 AM, January 02, 2006  

  • Happy New Year Ka Uro!!

    Hindi naman naiiwasan yung "magbalik-tanaw" sa nakalipas, di ba? At wala rin namang masama dito. Pero sabi nga ng lolo ko, "do not cry over spilled milk"....kaya kapag naiisip ko yung ex ko, na talaga namang napakabait at disenteng tao at alam kong minahal din naman ako ng husto; tumitingin ako sa "ngayon" at nagpapasalamat sa Diyos na hindi kami ni ex ang nagkatuluyan sapagkat nakatagpo ako ng MAS mabait at MAS disente at MAS nagmamahal sa akin.

    I consider myself "blessed" sapagkat ang aking "Present" and "One and Only" ay ang aking totoong "soul-mate".

    By Blogger Rhada, at 6:38 AM, January 02, 2006  

  • noel,
    salamat sa pag-share mo ng iyong hekspiryens. muntik pa tayong nagkapareho dahil jean din ang ngalan ng napangasawa ko.

    rhada,
    i'm very happy for you dahil sabi mo nga you are blessed with the "present", your real "soul-mate". siguro another way of looking at the situation is that masaya ka ngayon, at harinawa'y ganun din ang iyong ex. let's toast for our ex's. hik! sorry may hang-over pa yata ako ng new year.

    By Blogger Ka Uro, at 11:05 AM, January 02, 2006  

  • Happy New Year to you and your family. All the best in 2006.

    By Blogger Agring, at 11:07 AM, January 02, 2006  

  • Hi KU,

    Manigong Bagong Taon sa iyo at sa buo mong pamilya!=)

    I believe I somehow felt the same way like you did about your past. Wondered on how things would turn out if I chose to walk on the other path... Ngunit pagkatapos ko pag muni-munian ang mga naging epekto ng aking mga desisyon, nagpapasalamat pa din ako sa mga biyayang patuloy kong natatangap.=)

    Mabuhay po kayo KU! I wish you and your family good health and wealth!

    -Jack

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 3:35 PM, January 02, 2006  

  • Wonder Years ha...!!

    I like it, parang nakakarelate ako..it triggers me to look back to a lot of romantic memories which did not materialised, perhaps due to what they call destiny...sabi mo nga..."not that I want to change the past or present, only sometimes I can't help but wonder..." and I continue to wonder and wander around....

    Tamang romantic ka yata this year..KU

    Happy New year to you and your family...

    best regards,
    Wandering Mind!

    By Blogger Flex J!, at 3:56 PM, January 02, 2006  

  • i did..just like you, it's not that i wanted to change the present, i only wonder sometimes 'what if' i chose love over career? will i be happy? will i be where i am now? haayyy well, it's always like that naman, not that we regret whatever happened to us, but most of the time, we can't avoid to think of 'what if's'!

    ano nga kaya noh? ehhe napaisip tuloy ako..

    By Anonymous pObs, at 7:47 PM, January 02, 2006  

  • Also have that thought, halos parehas tayo ang kaiba nag ka syota talaga kami. At pinili ko yung career, at dito ko na rin na meet yung naging misis ko... marami akong naisip na "what if" lalo na noong nasa stage kami na hindi kami nakabuo for almost 7 years.

    Pero mabait pa rin ang maykapal at we're blessed with a cute little girl, she is now 4 months old.

    Happy New Year ka Uro!

    Regards,
    RayCer

    By Anonymous RayCer, at 2:40 AM, January 03, 2006  

  • When we meet the right person to love,
    at the right place, at the right time...That's chance.
    When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice...That's chance. Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice, that's also chance. The difference is, what happens afterward? When will you take that infatuation, that crush that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and then contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love the person, even with his/her faults, that's not chance...That's choice.
    When you choose to be with a person no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive,
    smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice. Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that last is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

    By Anonymous RayCer, at 4:04 AM, January 03, 2006  

  • Wow cute naman ng topic mo^_^ i love this talks haha..if u will check my blog i post mostly about this.Well,its nice to remember good old days like what we had experience in highschool..crush,puppy love,first love whatever...it makes us smile^_~ kase its part of life.Dyan tayo unang nasaktan,nagmahal and we learned from that experience.Hindi man natin nakatuluyan yung taong minahal natin noon...lets think that everything happens for a reason.And if we will ask God ,He will give the best for us...yung talagang para sa atin.
    And i have given the one...

    By Blogger lil _kath, at 5:56 AM, January 03, 2006  

  • agring,
    thanks.

    jack,
    yes, you're right we have to be grateful for all our blessings. wish you all the very best too this 2006.

    flex j,
    i can't help being a bit romantic kapag new year. lashing kase. hahaha


    pObs,
    oo nga masarap lang magmuni-muni paminsan-minsan.


    raycer,
    napakaganda ng mga sinabi mo about chances and choices. and it's all very true.

    lil_kath,
    oo napansin ko nga na you're a very romantic person. the girl with a mona lisa smile. totoo yung sinabi mo. God gives us the best and that things happen for a reason.

    By Blogger Ka Uro, at 8:39 AM, January 03, 2006  

  • ahhh... the "what if" question/s... i try to shy away from that question. maybe its destiny too... basta ba happy tayo sa atin kinalalagyan ngayon, di na importante ang mga nakaraan... pero siyempre, kung hindi dahil sa nakaraan, wala din tayo sa kasalukuyan...

    ay ewan, no sense na yata ako... hehehe...

    By Blogger JO, at 4:10 PM, January 03, 2006  

  • like jo, i dont wonder about the past.

    If you're happy and fulfilled in your present time, why wonder from your past? unless u have some unsolved "what-if".

    Happy New Year KU!!!

    By Blogger Mmy-Lei, at 6:18 PM, January 03, 2006  

  • Fafa Happy New Year din sa Inyo ni tita Jean & Fidez...

    wala na bang natira na handa hehehe..

    I posted something similar to these pero it summed up like..People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

    When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

    When people come into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But, only for a season.

    Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person; and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

    By Blogger KaDyo, at 6:53 PM, January 03, 2006  

  • HAPPY NEW YEAR, KU!

    wonder years... literal, a. well, probably they are the years when youth is equivalent to wonderful experiences of discovery (kahit anong discovery he he).

    all the best for you and for your family, KU!

    By Blogger bing, at 11:38 PM, January 03, 2006  

  • jo,
    magulo pero i know what you wanted to say.

    mmy,
    wala naman akong unsolved what ifs. perhaps just wondering kung maligaya rin kaya si BB ngayon?

    kd,
    thanks for the words of wisdom. truly there's a season for all reasons.

    bing,
    masarap kasing mag-discover nung kabataan. heheh.

    By Blogger Ka Uro, at 11:48 AM, January 04, 2006  

  • Hi, Ka Uro! Thought-provoking naman itong bagong post mo.

    I was asking myself if I wonder... hindi ata, hindi pa sa ngayon. I'm a person kasi who doesn't look back and think of the what ifs of the past.

    Thanks for sharing this post. May natutunan ako!

    By Anonymous Joy, at 1:24 PM, January 04, 2006  

  • parang bagay sayo yung Don't Cry Joni na song ano? :) ... pero masarap lang mag reminisce ng past ... parang ang linaw linaw pa rin sa isip diba .. lalo na kung masaya naman yung pinagdaanan mo saka .. crushes puppy love .... isa sa pinakamagandang pangyayari yan sa buhay ng bawat tao ... ang sarap maging bata .....FOREVER lol!!! (sharon gabby yan heheheehe) happy 2006 seyu ka URO!!

    By Blogger melai, at 4:01 PM, January 04, 2006  

  • hello papa i am back. ganda naman post mo gusto ko tuloy gayahin naalala ko first love ko na nawala ng hindi ko man lang naipahiwatig ang masidhi kong damdamin sa kanya. gusto kong gayahin ginawa ni dustin hoffman sa the graduate noong ikakasal na siya. Elaine!, Elaine! Elaine! sabay kuha ng krus na panghataw, takbo palabas sakay ng Bltb. co o Jam transit biyaheng pasay para tuloy na sa motel.

    By Blogger atoy, at 9:37 PM, January 04, 2006  

  • Happy New Year, KU!

    hmmm, I believe that everything happens for a reason, and i believe in destiny.

    pag hindi ukol, hindi bubukol..simple.

    By Anonymous thess, at 1:26 AM, January 05, 2006  

  • ok lang mag wonder kauro, wag lang mag wander... ehem.

    By Blogger Ka Elyong, at 6:27 AM, January 05, 2006  

  • Aw..ganda ng story :) maganda pa rin ang ending syempre hehe...
    Happy New Year KU

    By Anonymous Ethel, at 11:50 AM, January 05, 2006  

  • hehehe.. wander years daw o sabi ni elyong !

    I will be getting in touch with kiwinoy soon for I will be looking for a place na in a month or two. Pasensya na kamo dahil madami-daming work nung nakaraan.

    Ayoko lang makipagusap na bangag pa sa trabaho.

    By Blogger Senorito<- Ako, at 12:10 PM, January 05, 2006  

  • Tsk sorry ha... this article breaks my heart. Yung Tax % ng pinas pareho sa Tax % dito sa NZ.

    http://www.pcij.org/i-report/1/soup-kitchen.html

    Tax in Malaysia , Indonesia and Singapore are lower pero mas maunlad sila. Politiko lang talaga ang yumayaman sa atin.

    By Blogger Senorito<- Ako, at 12:15 PM, January 05, 2006  

  • almost everybody siguro had more or less the same experience. pero i dont ask myself those famous 'what ifs'...wala lang hehe. the thing is, what if di ako umoo kay frenchguy, e di wala akong Louna ngayon di ba hehe...

    happy new year Ka Uro and family!!!!

    By Blogger Analyse, at 3:30 AM, January 06, 2006  

  • Hi Ka Uro, aba, itong post mo kakatuwa basahin. Halos lahat tayo talaga ay may ganon sa buhay, may karanasan sa mga crushes/infatuations; puppy love. Matuwa nga rin lang ako iisipin ang mga nangyayari sa buhay noong una, bata pa. I do the same na I can only wonder and say “what if”. I often ask sa sarili na paano nga kaya kong kami nagkatuloyan? Ah, those days are fun, too, gone but they stay sa heart forever as we can only carry with us the memories. I think mostly in love na we make our choice kahit if sa chance pa. Ang dami na mahiyain at di talaga kayang ipag-tapat ang nararamdaman-damdamin. I can just imagine na tila hanggang sa dreams nalang ang sa iba saka pag asa; isip at damdamin. Yon nga ang case sa karamihan eh, di marunong manligaw...LOL, on top of it all shy na shy, hay. If not shy eh, masyadong makulit naman, pinapadaan nalang sa biro/tease, joke, biroan hanggang sa walang masabi. Di magawa ng girls na sila pa ay manligaw eh...LOL, kakahiya, never I’d do that. Anyway, masarap isipin ang mga ganon, they just bring back memories, happy memories, they put a smile on our faces. Almost day-dreaming na, naka dreamy look ka na pag you’re reminiscing...LOL. I am not sure though if it’s by fate, chance or choice, and for a reason as sometimes we get to where we want to go because we chose to and made it happen. I am not sure if indeed things happen for a reason, who knows ha. I can still remember this saying na “Things do not just happen unless you make them happen-JFK.

    By Blogger Analou P. S., at 9:32 AM, January 06, 2006  

  • Tama ka Ka Uro, mahirap kalimutan ang "wonder years" lalo na kung until sa panahon na to ay dinadalaw ka pa ng taong nagpapaalala ng wonder years na yon, But God knows which is best, things sometimes are not meant for us. But still i also wonder what if... i think it's a natural things for us human, Good day Ka Uro!

    Monna

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 1:03 PM, January 06, 2006  

  • Hello Ka Uro.. a Blessed Posperous New Year to you and ur family..
    Another meaningful post Ka Uro.. Nagbabalik-tanaw tuloy ako sa nakaraan.. :) Oo nga naman, what if or what if not?? Anyway, i always believe that there is a reason for every season.. A reason to let it go.. A reason to look back.. A reason to smile :)

    Nga pala po, I strongly agree with the above post reg tax here in Pinas! %$#@*%$#... haay talagaa! pati bonus at 13th month meron nadin..
    puede bang magpa-petition na lang sayo Ka Uro?? da best ako maghugas ng pinggan.. hehe.. :)

    By Anonymous Flordeliz, at 4:16 PM, January 06, 2006  

  • Merry Christmas at happy New year na rin! pasulpot-sulpot lang Ka Uro. Nabasa ko nga yung mga ibang posts mo nung nakaraan - at tila tinamaan din ako nung mga phases na binaybay mo. Nangyari din sa kin yaong mga iyon at hangang ngayon ay nangyayari pa rin. Kaya pasilip-silip lang.

    Cheers!

    By Blogger Huseng Busabos, at 7:26 AM, January 07, 2006  

  • joy,
    paminsan-minsan ok lang magmuni-muni ng what-ifs. important thing is never have regrets and be happy and contented with what we have at present.

    melai,
    kapag may idad na, memories na lang ng nakalipas ang nagpapasaya sa atin. sinong may idad na? sino? di ako. hahah

    atoy,
    hahaha. kakapanood ko lang ulit ng "the graduate" at aliw-na-aliw pa rin ako kay dustin. those were the days, atoy.


    thess,
    correct ka diyan. kapag hindi para sa iyo, ibig sabihin may mas maganda pang naghihintay para sa yo.


    ka elyong,
    bakit sino bang nag-wawander? si flex lang yun. haha

    senor,
    regards mo ako kay kiwinoy. maganda naman at busy ka sa work. ibig sabihin you won't notice the days, andiyan na si misis at si baby.

    analyse,
    true. you are very lucky with frenchguy and your lovely baby.

    ana p.s.,
    masarap lang balikan and nakaraan kasi sabi mo nga they put a smile on our faces. i like the quote from JFK.

    monna,
    that's right. God knows best. there is a reason why things happen differently.

    flor,
    pano yon kung kukunin kitang dishwasher e di mawawalan ako ng trabaho. baka naman sipain na ako ni esmi sa bahay. hahah

    huseng,
    welcome back. tagal mo ngang nawala.

    By Blogger Ka Uro, at 10:57 AM, January 07, 2006  

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